Three Amazing Ways You Can Re-Parent Yourself
The First Way – Compassionate Accountability
In my office, I’ve heard from clients stories of broken phones, punched walls, and even bent steering wheels. All in the name of anger.
For making a mistake.
What You Didn’t Get
When a parent sits down with a child who has behaved badly, used poor judgment, or made a mistake, and says, “Let’s figure out what happened,” that parent is teaching her (or his) child Compassionate Accountability.
But many parents don’t know that it’s their job to teach their child how to process a mistake; how to sift through what happened and sort out what part of it belongs to circumstances, and what part belongs to the child. What can we learn from this? What should you do differently next time?
There is a balance between all of these factors which must be understood. The parent holds the child accountable, but also helps him (or her) understand himself and have compassion for himself and his mistake.
What To Give Yourself
If your parents were too hard or too easy on you for mistakes, or failed to notice them at all, it’s not too late for you now. You can learn Compassionate Accountability today. Follow these steps when you make a mistake.
- Remind yourself that you are human, and humans are not perfect. Everyone makes mistakes.
- Think through the situation. What went wrong? Are there things you should have known, or realized, or thought about? Those are the parts that you own. Those are where you’ll find the lessons for you to take away from this. Take note of what you can learn, and etch it into your memory. This can be the growth that results from your error.
- Have compassion for your humanness: Your age, your stress level, and the many factors that contributed to this mistake.
- Vow that next time you’ll use your new knowledge to do better. Then put this behind you.
The Second Way – Self-Discipline
We are not born with the ability to manage our impulses. Self-discipline is not something that you should expect yourself to have automatically. Self-discipline is learned. In childhood.
What You Didn’t Get
When parents have rules, and enforce them firmly and with love, they are naturally teaching their childre how to do this for themselves. Do your homework before you go out to play. Fill the dishwasher, even though you don’t want to. You are not allowed to have a second dessert. Balanced, fair requirements enforced with care by your parents teach you how, years later, to do this for yourself.
What To Give Yourself
If you struggle with self-discipline more than most other people, it does not mean that you are weak-willed or less strong than others. It only means that you didn’t get to learn some important things in childhood. Never fear, you can learn them now. Follow these steps.
- Stop blaming yourself for your struggles with self-discipline. When you accuse yourself of being weak or deficient, you make it harder to get a foothold on making yourself do things you don’t want to do, and on stopping yourself from doing things that you shouldn’t do.
- If you are too hard on yourself at times, chances are high that you also, at other times, go too far in the opposite direction. Do you sometimes let yourself off the hook when you don’t follow your own rules? This, too, is damaging.
- Use the Compassionate Accountability skills you are building by applying them each time you fall down on self-discipline.
The Third Way – Learn to Love the Real You
We all learn to love ourselves in childhood; that is, when things go well. When we feel our parents’ love for us, it becomes our own love for ourselves, and we carry that forward through adulthood.
What You Didn’t Get
We tend to assume that if our parents loved us, that’s enough. But it isn’t necessarily, at all. There are many different ways for a parent to love a child. There’s the universal type of parental love: “Of course, I love you. You’re my child.” Then there’s real, substantive, meaningful parental love. This is the love of a parent who really watches the child, really sees and knows the child, and really loves the person for who he or she truly, deeply is.
What to Give Yourself
Most people receive at least some of the first type of love. Far fewer receive the second type. Do you feel that your parents truly know the real you? Do they love you for who you are? Do you love yourself this way? Truly and deeply? If you sense something is missing in your love for yourself, it may be because you didn’t receive enough genuine, deeply felt love from your parents. But it’s not too late for you to get it. You can give it to yourself.
- Accept that it’s not your fault that your parents couldn’t love you in the way you needed.
- Start paying more attention to yourself. Who are you? What do you love and hate, like and dislike, care about, feel, think? These are the aspects of you that make you who you are.
- Pay special attention to what’s good about you. Make a list and keep adding to it. Are you a loyal friend? A hard worker? Dependable? Caring? Honest? Write down everything that occurs to you, even if it’s very small. Re-read the list often. Take these qualities in and own them. They are you.
Growing up with mostly Type 1 Love has a far more serious impact than you think. It’s highly correlated to not learning Compassionate Accountability and self-discipline. If you see yourself in this article, read more at EmotionalNeglect.com and the book, Running on Empty.
“Think through the situation. What went wrong? Are there things you should have known, or realized, or thought about? Those are the parts that you own. Those are where you’ll find the lessons for you to take away from this. Take note of what you can learn, and etch it into your memory. This can be the growth that results from your error.”
HOW can I learn WHAT I need to learn? Clearly I don’t know whatever caused the mess I’m in – assuming my departing mate is correct about how awful I’ve been to him, without having any conversation with me about it, just giving an edict. As far as I can tell I’d have to have been smiling all the time, not showing negative emotions – let myself be subsumed into serving him?
He’d never let me talk about my needs, only tell me that I’m doing wrong, not satisfying him. All that tells me I could learn from is – what? He’s an inappropriate partner? I’m an awful person? I don’t know how I’m expressing myself? My unhappily genuine “resting bitch face” is the liability it feels like? It was a relationship, but you can’t MAKE a partner (or anyone) talk with you – how to understand? On what knowledge would I base decisions about what to learn? It’s a major boggle, not knowing what you don’t know, nor how to decipher clues – nor how you present yourself, how people see you. I’ve even been blatantly discriminated against because I’m perceived to be Jewish, and am not – so I know perceptions matter, I know that how one appears – both visually and emotionally – is critical, but I have NO idea how I come across, how others see me. They see me well and happily when I am doing/giving to/for them, giving gifts and doing favors, but how can I learn to be “just” me and find some companionship/group to be with? It’s a quandry – oh, and I’m a late-middle-aged straight, female, only child who didn’t grow up feeling loved; I felt always on the defensive – sadly, I expect those are factors in all this . . .